My local high school, the school I was supposed to attend, put on a performance of the SpongeBob Musical. When I first heard, I thought it was cool. I really would have loved to see it. But there was a problem.
Not only would I be in an environment where I felt unsafe, but I would be near a few students who only contributed to that unsafe feeling I mentioned.
Even so, I wish I had left my home and stepped into the school I feared so greatly.
I wish I had walked into the auditorium, giving a subtle "fuck you" to those who hated me by not even looking in their direction. But most of all, I wish I was there to support one of my best friends ever. I believe this musical was very important to him, and I worry I let him down.
I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wanted to be there, to enjoy the show and support my best friend. But I let my fear of getting recognized by other students swallow me. I made my decision. I stayed home.
And even though that was so long ago, I still regret it.
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